When Erica Jong wrote Fear of Flying,
Grandmother Barbie, then only 14,
took the title literally. Grandma was
already a
toughie, and determined
not to end up like all those fifties housewives
at least not the ones in commercials who never
climbed
out
of their aprons,
who ran off shrieking when little grey mice popped
up
in the
kitchen at midnight
-
suddenly forgetting how to pick
up a broom -
or who toted the boys from game to game but
never dreamt of learning to pitch. When this Barbie
assured her best friend Ken she was ready to meet
whatever the challenge, his elder brother – he’d flown
fighter planes over Mekong Delta, crawled home
to live out his days on the streets of Oakland -
said that girls who wanted to fly could serve
coffee or tea
on TWA or Panam, land an executive hubby
or at least a half-decent pension plan,
Grandma got so pissed that she stomped off
swearing she’d show those old boys
- and the
new ones too -
never to underestimate a girl who was born
in 1959. Not made of plastic, she’d
step down off the shelves after store hours,
always waiting
to first hear the clatter
when the
last employee pulled down the folding gate,
and switched off the lights. Steady with a flashlight,
she’d sit till morning, studying flight manuals and the history
of aviation, obsessing over lives like Amelia’s and Bessie’s
or the novel she was currently reading.
It was about Marx’s bastard daughter
who becomes a pilot, vanishing
into the fogs of a world that reneged on any
real revolution.
There were other stories too
and legends like one about a Mexican lady
who escaped the dungeon by flying
out the
window of her cell. But my grandma
Barbie,
being no sorceress, concluded
she’d have to fight the system with
its own tools. When she realized
she’d
better
not wait for the southern states to ok
the
ERA, she decided once again
to
take matters into her own hands.
She’d pull
on her overalls, sneak
out
onto the airfields
while the
others were still stone drunk
or snoring, flying her planes
to
some off-the-map island. There were
no h-bombs in hiding, nor tourists
tucked
happily away in the brilliant steel belly
of her dream machine, as she headed out
into the deep of a night
where
no Club Med and no World War III
could
ever be possible.